Falling For An Aria

Okay, so, I logged onto my other LiveJournal account and went to check an on-going argument that's been going on in one of my friend's comments. It had something to do with World of Warcraft, and that me and said friend may be quitting so. (Or, I'll at least be taking a break...) 
      So, another 'friend' left a comment that basically said what losers we are, and that 'ZOMG WOW R PART OF 10 COMMNDMENTS...' Of course, I'm like, 'What the hell?' Seriously, I'm ALLOWED to want to leave a game, right? Yeah, well. Apparently not. Now Friend and me are, like, Public Enemy Number One. Oh, well, though. She's a moody person, the WoW addict is. <.<
       In other news, however! I've been stuck on Harry Potter books again, and haven't read anything except for Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. :-). (Which is awesome, might I add. Oh, but all the deaths. I cried. A lot. FREEED. TOOOONKS. LUUUUUUUPIN! Ahem.) 
      Also, in art class, we have to make a scene out of our favorite book or movie out of pictures from magazines. It's pretty fun, actually. I'm doing the scene in Jane Eyre when she runs away from Thornfield and passes out on the rocks...I can't find a proper head or dress, though. :-( Oh, well. I'll find something! Also, the scarves for the pioneers are going well, with the exception of L, A, and N. Eee. They better get knitting.

Just wanted to give a quick update. (Also, song coming in two days! Yay.)

I forgot to mention this in my first post -- every Wednesday, I'll be posting a song up on here. Sometimes they'll be happy, sometimes they'll be sad, sometimes they'll be all lovey-dovey. Depends on what mood I'm in. :) 

Anyway, though, you know how I said I had that 'sort of' boyfriend, Alex? Yeah, well. I don't even know what's going on in the relationship. Ever since he asked me to be his girlfriend, we've hardly spoken, but we've been speaking a lot more lately. And, also, there's my friend Kevin -- who seems to like me, and I think I'm starting to like him. I dunno, though. It's...complicated.
      I'm just starting to feel that I want to meet someone that's passionate and free and funny. Alex is quiet and sweet, but he's not adventorous. I love him to bits (maybe more as a friend) but I've been feeling odd lately. It's like...I want to meet someone I could spend the rest of my life with, who I'd drink poison for. People say I'm too young to feel those ways, though I think differently. I mean, I'm not ready to get married...But I think someone could fall in love at any age. I'm sick of disapproving looks from people when I give my ideas of a great romance. (My immediate family wouldn't do that, but my other family members? Yeah. Especially my grandmother.) I'm just so tired of pretending I'm a docile little girl that has no feelings, no passion. I'm scared I really will become numb.

Yeah, sure, boys have left little notes in my locker that say that they like me and everything, but I want to fall in love. Maybe I am too young, maybe I am too inexperienced. But I'm going to need to learn, somehow. There was this one boy who I thought I was in love with, but I realized I was lying to myself. Afterward, he hurt me badly, and we haven't spoken since. He wasn't a good person, but I didn't realize that, then. I was believing all of his lies so he could pretend to love me. It was stupid and foolish, on my part, but I can't reverse what I did.
   So, as for that great love story I want to have? Hopefully, it will come soon. But for now, I have a lot of figuring out to do. ;o

 

Soooooo. This is my first post out of what will be (hopefully) many. I'm not very good at keeping journals, but I will try my very best. (Yeah, I've said that a lot, but. I REALLY will try.)

So. Yes. Introductions, and all of that.

My name is Anna, and I'm most skilled in writing and singing. The songs I write are sort of a mixture of Evanescence, Marie Digby, and Sara Bareilles. (Yes. It's a musical blob, but it works for me. :D) Music is pretty much my life -- if I'm not playing or singing music, it's playing in my head. Also, I love to write stories of all kinds, from fantasy to royalty to World War II.
       I'm in a very close family, which is blessing, but can result in arguments. It's my mom, dad, and my two older brothers, Mark (23) and Dane (21). My family are my best friends, and I couldn't without them. But also, I can suffer from severe depression -- like, I can have a really good month, and then feel awful the next. It's like being bipolar, but not as bad. 
      I have a 'sort of' boyfriend named Alex, which is difficult to explain. My best friends -- outside of my family, which includes my darling cousins -- are Charlotte, Starsha, and Alex. They're the ones who know me best, at school, and I love them all to death.
     My ideal romance, though, is that worthy of a Jane Austen novel -- most likely Pride and Prejudice, or maybe even Charlotte Bronte's Jane Eyre. I mean, seriously. Who wouldn't want to fall in love with someone they thought that they hated? :-) Or make someone's heart who seemed so cold melt? Ahh, it would be a great experience.

How'd I do for my first post? :D